Thank you for visiting this page! This book has it's own consciousness. It was 11 years in the making and I am so excited to birth it as a gift to the world. Here is how it starts...

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Dear Reader,
If you were at a crossroad, and you saw a sign that read “Spiritual Seeker, Turn Here,” would you turn?

I did, and as I would find out in time, this was the first step in my re-turn…the return to my Self. This is to be a story of adventure and exploration. It’s about the journey so many of us take to find ourselves when we no longer know who we are. I will regale you with tales of far away lands and lands not-so-far away, and I’ll tell you how they have helped me to get to the place beyond the story. Some of you already know this place, and some of you may have only an inkling. Either way, I’m pretty sure you will enjoy my story if you enjoy travel, love stories, and food for the soul.


I’m going to take you with me on an epic 13-month adventure through India, Nepal, and Southeast Asia, but first, I need to tell you how I came to find myself on a plane with a one-way ticket to a foreign land. It is said that the “dark night of the soul” often involves disconnection to spirit, depression, and crisis. It is also the call to shed old stories, limiting beliefs, identities, programs, and patterns. We often need to forget who we think we are in order to remember who we really are.

This is a story about remembering. It is about my rebirth and reconnection to that place beyond the story. As with any journey of transformation, there are many hard lessons and revelations along the way. I am honored to share these vulnerable truths with you. It is my hope that in sharing my journey, you will get a little closer to who you are. May it inspire you, delight you, make you laugh, and maybe even cry.


In humble gratitude,

Bonnie Divina Maa

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Here are some descriptions and reviews....

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Bonnie Divina Maa takes spiritual travel to new heights!

She begins with a heartbreak that many people can identify with... divorce, betrayal, depression, and despair. What follows is an unlikely tale of what she calls her rebirth, leading her out on an epic journey to find out who she is, to heal wounds of the past, and to learn from enlightened masters, planning to "eat, pray, and love... all at once, all the time.” Highly introspective and beautifully written… sexy, funny, gripping, and full of adventure, her story explores many spiritual topics of modern and ancient intrigue, including yoga, tantra, religion, spiritual philosophies, plant medicine, relationships, sacred sexuality, shadow work, and personal transformation, all woven together in a wild and heart-driven memoir of self-discovery and remembrance.

"Bonnie’s book is a gem and a delight. With a wonderful story-telling ability, she takes you with her on a journey through India and Southeast Asia. We visit out of the way places and meet an extraordinary variety of people. This exotic outer journey is enhanced by an account of Bonnie’s inner journey. She visits a number of ashrams and teachers, and with a touching honesty and raw vulnerability, shares with the reader the emotional roller-coaster of her journey of self-discovery. The book will delight and inform and inspire, and give you a new appreciation of Eastern mysticism and its power to transform and awaken the seeker of truth." —Frank Vilaasa, author of What is Love?

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Wow. So many takeaways. I don’t even know where to begin. I never finish books and I finished this one in only a few days. I couldn’t put it down! I felt like I was on this journey with the author. I cried through the first 4 chapters as I felt her pain and highlighted so many pieces thereafter to go back and reflect and meditate on. This book really brings perspective to so many of the feelings and thoughts we endure on the path of spiritual growth and understanding who we are and why we are here BEYOND the stories we are told and have been telling ourselves. Thank you for sharing your story and wisdom with us.🙏🏻 - Hope Taylor

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I just started to read this incredibly compelling book, and all I can say is WOW!!! 

In these times of uncertainty and despair, Bonnie Divina Maa offers profound insight and accessible tools for transforming suffering into wisdom and service to benefit of all beings. Deep bows.  - Monika Nataraj